So things have been kind of rough lately. I’m down, stressed, worried, scared, mad…all at the same time. I’ve come to my breaking point and have realized that something needs to change.
I don’t have a bad life by any means. I’m just having a hard time getting over the obstacles placed in front of me. My emotions are getting the best of me and as strong as I am trying to be, I can’t do this alone. There really is no need to come out and go on and on about what’s going on, the only thing that matters is that I can’t, and will not keep on like this and it’s time to go through the motions. Just within the past few days I have learned a lot and really opened up my eyes to what really matters. I’ve broken down and let out everything that’s been going on inside my head that I have held on to for so long now. Many people have never seen me shed a tear and those who have, know that it doesn’t happen often.
Everyone eventually reaches their breaking point and it’s completely normal, this time it just caught me off-guard. After a few conversations with people I felt somewhat better, but heard the same thing over and over again. What I need is faith, and recently, it’s been non-existent. This is all in his hands, out of my control…
Onto a more positive note, I’m so lucky for what I do have. I’ve taken so many things for granted and never really taken the time to step back and say “things could be much worse”. I have some of the best friends I could ask for who would do anything for me, I have a family who has had my back through thick and thin. I’m healthy (for the most part), in school, have a job, a steady place to live.. what more could I honestly ask for? What’s meant to be will find a way .. I know that’s cliche and all but it’s true. There isn’t time to stress and worry about the little things…. god I wish I could take my own advice.
Anyway, Kind of sick of writing for now… i’ll finish later.
