Curveballs

“Life throws you curve balls, but you either learn to swerve them or hit them like there is no tomorrow. “

We’ve all heard about life throwing us curve balls. It happens to the best of us and sometimes, even the greatest can’t adjust. Say you’re up to the plate and the pitcher winds up and slings a nasty curve ball your way. What do you do? The ball was only a hair away from nailing you in your gut…an eye opener huh? Do you step back, re-adjust the situation, and step back up to the plate? Do you stand there hoping the next pitch will be different?

Say you step back and re-adjust yourself.. you then take the chance of either getting out whether it be through contact or striking out, you take the chance of successfully making contact and earning your spot on base, you get walked and that base is handed to you, or the ball hits you and you’re awarded a base, just with consequences.

If you stand there and expect something different from the pitcher, be ready to move out of the way. You know that same pitch could be coming at any minute and what you do with it is all up to you. Either you really will get nailed in the gut while the pitcher looks back at you with that ” Should have learned the first time” mentality or you do something about it.

Life is full of curve balls in many shapes and forms, but what will you do when that pitch comes your way?

I saw it coming all along… so why am I surprised at where this ended up? I’m stubborn and vulnerable and needed to follow my head and not my heart from the start. I stood there while that nasty curve grazed my gut over and over again. Eventually, I stepped back to get a better view… and prevented myself from the pain before it happened. I’ve played the defensive role for way too long..it’s time for me make something happen.

Thing’s aren’t the best right now, but they are definitely looking up… in some aspects. Out of nowhere, someone comes and knocks me off my feet. Helped me realize what’s important and what I really deserve. You can’t sit there and watch things happen..You can’t pity yourself because of that obstacle blocking your path. Starting today, I’m going to really try to take things for what they are. No more feeling down like nothing is going my way, because that’s not the case. I’m truly blessed with the opportunities that have been placed in front of me, the backbone and support that surrounds me, and the future that’s ahead of me. There is no time to dwell on what could have been or constantly wish things are something they aren’t. The people who mean the most to me are constantly by my side and those who are not, aren’t meant to be there in the fist place. I’ve learned to not listen to what people say because I know better. It’s going to take more than pulling words out of your butt to hurt my feelings. The more I look at what I have right in front of me, that more I appreciate the life I lead. I’m a lucky girl and there are so many other people out there who can’t say the same.

so, my theory is :
Life throws you curve balls, so learn how to swing…and not miss

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Something new?

So, I guess I’m going to jump on the bandwagon and get one of these blogs that everyone else seems to have.

Lately, my mind has been going crazy. I’ve reached so many forks in the road and the hard part isn’t choosing which way to go, it’s figuring out where to go once i’m lost. I need to go through and pick out all the weeds that are holding me back from where I want to go and what I want to be. There seems to be so many obvious solutions as to what I should do, but since when have I been the one to do things the easy way?…why start now?

Here I am, 180 miles east of where I truely feel my heart belongs. I’m not saying it was a mistake to go away and I’m not saying that I regret it, but something  is missing. Maybe it’s comfort, maybe it’s feeling wanted…either way, this isn’t what I want nor what I wanted. I’ve asked myself what I really want, and I can’t come up with much. My life is back in Greensboro and I took advantage of what I had. It wasn’t until I got the job with AmeriCorps and was told I had a week to pack up and head out that it really  hit me… I didn’t want to come in the first place. It never helps moving to a new town with a negative attitude but somethings are hard to avoid. Apparently everything that I thought I wanted, was far from reality.

Nothing against East Carolina as a whole, but on a more personal level, it’s not for me. I thought this “Pirate Nation” was my idea of the true college experience… but I was wrong, once again. It’s purple & gold everywhere…pirates, skulls and crossbones rule this town. I was overwhelmed with the pride within the town and I loved it. Sold out football games, parties everywhere,  a full wardrobe of ECU gear, late nights and early..hungover..mornings were my idea of “the best years of your life”. It’s a college town without a doubt but it’s a little much for me. I’m not all about the partying 24/7 and I’m definitely not all about my professors making me feel as if I’m on the road to being another statistic, whether referring to the drop out rate or STD’s. Reallll professional LET ME TELL YOU.

I miss home, not gonna lie. Yes, I’m comparing everything to what I’ve left behind and it’s going to create a negative impact on Greenville but it is what it is. Enough about ECU…

Being here has helped me realize who really matters, and who never did. I’m learning now to let go of the people who cause more harm than good and focus on the important things. Sometimes you have to do what’s best for you, and let go of the rest. People get hurt, emotions go wild, and sometimes it feels like the world is crashing down on you, but life goes on.

“And I take the first step of a million more.
And I’ll make mistakes I’ve never made before.
But at least I’m moving forward”

I’m done rambling..but maybe I’ll update later.